Meditations on a Bullet: Violently Injured Young Men Discuss Masculinity, Disability and Blame

Violently-acquired spinal cord injury (VASCI) has recently emerged as a significant disability category. Identity formation following such a serious injury is important for psychosocial recovery. However, research examining individuals with VASCI is largely limited to epidemiological work prior to the injury and rehabilitation outcomes following the injury. This article details the results from a qualitative study to understand how young men with violently-acquired spinal cord injuries integrate the injury into their sense of self, as well as how the disability interacts with other aspects (e.g., racial/ethnic, gender, etc.) of their identity. Eleven men in this study were all former or current gang members, paralyzed because of their activities. Throughout the interviews four major themes emerged: environmental effects, making sense of the injury, living life on a split-screen, and challenges to masculinity. For the men in this study, the negative associations between disability and dependency affected their ability to integrate their injury positively into their identity.