Making sense of the cancer journey: Pediatric cancer survivors’ and their parents’ autobiographical memories

Purpose Youth diagnosed with acute lymphoblastic leukemia (ALL) and their caregiver’s experience a myriad of challenges in all domains of health that extend beyond treatment. Yet, little is known about how the cancer experience, and recollections associated with the experience, impact survivorship. We explored pediatric ALL survivors’ and their caregivers’ autobiographical memories of the cancer experience from diagnosis onwards. Methods Survivors of ALL, and one of their caregivers, were recruited through a local clinic. Survivors and their caregivers completed a demographic survey and semi-structured, private, one-on-one interviews. Demographic information were analyzed using descriptive statistics. Interviews were transcribed verbatim and analyzed using reflexive thematic analysis at the level of the individual and dyad. Results Insights from survivors ( N = 19; M age = 15.3 years) and their caregivers ( n = 19; M age = 45.4 years) were captured. Analyses generated two themes contingent on role (i.e., survivor or caregiver): (1) It is hard to recall my cancer experience and (2) We did as much as we could to manage our child’s cancer experience and two unified themes (present in both survivors and their caregivers): (3) It took a village to get through the cancer experience and (4) The cancer diagnosis and experience has had a lasting impact . Conclusions Findings highlight the varied and long-lasting ways cancer impacts survivors of pediatric ALL and their caregivers. Survivors had difficultly remembering their experience or felt that information was withheld and were acutely aware of their caregiver’s distress. Caregivers were cautious and intentionally limited the information they shared. Implications for cancer survivors Survivors desired to be included within, or told about, decisions related to their healthcare and were acutely aware of their caregiver’s distress. Efforts should be made to communicate with survivors (from diagnosis onward) openly and to consider strategies to minimize the short- and long-term impacts of pediatric ALL among survivors and their caregivers.